Life Without Danny: Week 6

We are going into the sixth week of being away from each other. But the good news is Danny is coming home earlier! Instead of coming home on December 4th, he will be back on November 3rd! We are both so excited. It's only a couple weeks away. 

Turns out he won't be taking the rails class after all. Long story. But he is almost done with the iOS course. And he is loving it. He has already made an app called fridgeit for iOS 7.0. It's not a very exciting app, it was just a little something he threw together in three days to have something to put on his resume. But he is working on creating a game right now and is actually putting some time into that app. 

As for Rylee, she is doing great. She is teething right now and her back teeth are next, she already has her top four and bottom four teeth. She's had those for awhile now. Poor baby is going to have a bad time with these new ones coming in. I'm very excited to see how she reacts when Danny comes back home. She loves him so much. She will be so excite to see her daddy again! 

Life Without Danny: Week 5

Wow, it's already been 5 weeks. I can't believe how fast the weeks are going by. Almost halfway through. And only less than a month until I get to see Danny again! 

Taking care of Rylee without Danny here is really wearing on me. I don't have time for anything. I'm lucky if I get to do a 30 minute cardio session in the morning. But I know this is all for the better so I am trying to stay positive about everything. 

Also! Danny might come home early! He might be done with school in November instead of December. He's in the iOS class right now (8 weeks), and he was supposed to take Ruby on Rails(4 weeks) right after. Turns out, the class might be full and he may not get to go. 

Danny already knows a little RoR, from teaching himself. So that's good. It would obviously look better on his resume if he took the Rails course too, but if not, he can always put in more hours at home. Either way, whatever is meant to be, will be. We're just letting God take control. We will find out soon when he will be coming back home for good! 

Life Without Danny: Week 4

4 weeks down, 8 to go! Wow, time has just been flying by. I can't believe it has already been a month. It's getting easier day by day, although I don't really get to talk to Danny much on the phone. We usually only iMessage each other. And we don't even get to do that often because he's constantly working on iOS apps. But it's okay because I keep myself busy with Rylee, and it's nice hanging out with my grandparents. 

So like I said, I don't get to talk to Danny on the phone very often. I get to talk to him once a day, and it's usually at bedtime, if I'm lucky, I get to talk to him for a little while on his lunch break. Anyway, last night I finally got to talk to him, after not being able to talk to him all day. He was in line at a RedBox returning a movie as he was telling me about how he was at Vons the night before and a lady in line was being super rude to him. He finished his story, and I started talking to him about it, not knowing that I was on speaker phone, so everyone around him could hear me. Well, as I am talking to him, some girl behind him in line totally cuts me off and starts asking Danny about the situation in Vons he was telling me about, so he starts quickly explaining it to her. So I said "I guess I'll let you go and talk to you later." He asked "why?" And I said "because someone just RUDELY interrupted our conversation while I was talking to you and now you're talking to her." I said way more than that, I can't remember exactly what I said, but something along the lines of "holy shit, what is wrong with people?! I can't believe someone would try to stay a conversation with someone while they are clearly on the phone. Does she seriously not see that you're talking to someone?!" So he just started talking to me again. I asked what movie he was returning. And he said the new Star Trek. THEN the girl goes "oh that was a great movie huh?!" And I say "oh my god, she's doing it again? That's so f*cking rude and inconsiderate, she needs to shut up, I never get to talk to you and this is the only few minutes I have with you." Then Danny was walking back to his car and said "jeez babe, you're on speaker phone." Oops! I told him I was glad she hear me. Keep in mind I was a little sad in the first place that I don't have much talking time with my husband and I miss him like crazy. Also, I was so surprised that someone would completely interrupt someone on the phone. How disrespectful. AND, it's even worse because she tried talking to him a SECOND time after she heard me tell him it was rude the first time she did it. And after I expressed how much I miss him and never get to talk to him. So it was almost like she did it a second time to be a b*tch. Excuse the language. The whole situation just pissed me off! 

I do think I overreacted a little bit though! But, I have been exhausted for four weeks being a "single" mom, and I miss my damn husband! I don't regret saying anything I said while I was on speaker phone, like I said, I'm glad she heard me! Haha! 

All I know is, when I see someone talking on their cell phone, I definitely wouldn't randomly start a conversation with them. Have some decency people! 

Anyway, I cannot wait to see Danny in a month! He will be back in Mammoth to visit for the weekend for Rylee's birthday! :D 

Life Without Danny: Week 3

I can't believe it's been three weeks already. Almost four! The third week without my husband wasn't too bad. Obviously each week gets better, because I get more and more used to him being gone. He is doing really well in school and I am so proud of him. 

A few days ago, Rylee would NOT nap. I tried for three hours to get her to nap. I tried bouncing her, I tried laying down and nursing her, nothing was working. I was also in the middle of getting ready. So I would put her down to play with toys so I could finish getting ready. Every time I put her down, she would cry. So I would try to get her to nap again. And that was the cycle for three whole hours. It sucked. It was very hard on me. 

Eventually she took a nap, and I got to finish getting ready. I just need to keep reminding myself that everything will get better, eventually. 

We FaceTime Danny almost everyday. Rylee and I miss him so much and can't wait for him to be done with school! It's so hard with him gone, I'm a full time mom and I just miss having him around in general. He will be back on November 6th for Rylee's birthday weekend. We cannot wait! <2

10 Months Postpartum

The last time I updated about my postbaby body was at 7 months. Ever since then, I have been working out a lot, until recently. If you've read my posts about Danny being gone for school, then you know I've been so busy lately, and exhausted. 

However, I am satisfied with my body the way it is now. I am 115 lbs (20 lbs below pre pregnancy weight), and I feel great. I was jogging about 5-6 days a week for awhile, as well as weightlifting and eating a healthy diet. 

Since Danny left, I've been working out less. And since I've been at my grandparents house, I've been eating more junk. I know, I feel terrible about it! But I haven't gained any weight. I still walk a lot, and still chase a baby around everywhere so I think those things alone keep me fit. Ha ha!! 

Today I started doing workouts again. I don't plan to jog though, and if I do, it'll be like a 1 day a week thing. I don't want to actually lose anymore weight, I'd just like to tone up a bit. So I will be doing tons of little workouts and weights. I am also going to try and eat healthier again. I still eat healthy, I just indulge in desserts more often now. 

Anyway, here is a photo of my post pregnancy body now! 

I am so happy with my body. I love my body. I have never been able to say that before. Like I said, I will continue some workouts and tone my body more, but I'm not unhappy with the way I now look. And I actually do love my curves! :) 

Life Without Danny: Week 2

This (second) week was a little easier than last. I was still super lonely, but not nearly as much. My sister, Desiray, drove down from Oregon and visited a few days. That is another long story that I won't get into. But it was nice to see her, I haven't visited her in awhile. That alone kept me distracted for a little bit, and that's what I needed. I also went on frequent walks to run errands with my father in law. So that was also nice to have someone to talk to during the day while Danny was unavailable to FaceTime or call. 

My grandparents from Azusa got ahold of me this week and invited me to stay at their house for as long or as short a I wanted. This was such a nice offer because I always enjoy visiting them and their beautiful home. They offered to pick me up in Mammoth (a 6 hour drive), and bring me back whenever I want. I am so grateful for this opportunity. I was absolutely overjoyed. So my grandparents picked me up on the 20th, and here I am in Azusa! 

Being away from my husband has been a lot easier since being here at my grandma and grandpa's house. It still sucks and I still miss him a lot, but I'm a lot more distracted here. It's also a lot quieter here in the suburbs, so Rylee sleeps more peacefully. Where we live, there are always loud events nearby, with lots of music and drunk people. So Rylee had a hard time sleeping in that environment. It's a lot easier to deal with when I'm not taking care of her alone, so it's just nice to be away for a little bit. Rylee and I do miss Danny's family back home though! 

We still FaceTime Danny at night, and Rylee loves seeing him! She gets so excited when she sees his face, I know she misses him tons. She is doing very good, though, behavior wise. I am so proud of her. We are so excited for dad to come back home! 

On another note, there was a fire here in Azusa Canyon last night, and my grandparents house is right next to the canyon! So I got some pretty cool shots of it. The fire is completely out now, but there was still so much smoke this morning. It was all cleared out by this afternoon, though. The first photo is taken from the back balcony, and the second is taken this morning from the front, with my grandparents house on the left, that's how close we were! 

Life Without Danny: Week 1

So before I begin, I would like to point out that Danny and I are in the third week of being away from each other while he is in school. I meant to post this a couple weeks ago but ended up getting too busy.

Anyway, for those of you who don't know, Danny left for Seattle on September 7th for school. He is studying web development at Code Fellows until December 4th (right now he's taking an iOS class and is learning how to make apps for the iPhone! He's in the process of making one now!) So that means that I am in California taking care of Rylee as a "single mom". I am not single obviously, but I sure am getting a taste of what it'd be like! I've been much more exhausted and my back has been killing me! I've been chasing little Rylee (10 months) around all day every day! Kudos to all the single moms/dads out there. 

Danny will be flying back home in November for Rylee's birthday, she will be one year old on November 7th! I can't believe how fast time has gone by. Anyway, I just want to share my experience being away from Danny with you guys. The longest we've been apart was a week, and we didn't have Rylee then. So it was very easy to deal with being away from each other. 

I know lots of families do this, and I know this isn't nearly as hard to deal with as it is for military families. So I am very thankful for that and I appreciate everything God has given me. But although it may not be as hard as other people's situations, it is still a little hard. I've never had to take care of an infant all on my own before, Danny is such a big help, and a great dad! I am so thankful to have such an amazing husband, I am glad he is the father of my baby. I couldn't ask for a better partner.

So the first week was hell. The morning Danny left was so hard. Tears and lots of emotions were involved, and it just sucked altogether to say the least. It wasn't something we were quite prepared for, he got accepted into this bootcamp a few days before leaving, so it all kind of happened last minute. 

Once Danny hit the road to Seattle, I felt so alone. I was sad, anxious, and all of a sudden depressed. I was so anxious because our phones had gotten shut off a couple days prior (that's a long story in itself). Basically, we had no way of getting ahold of each other on his long venture to Washington. Not being able to call him and check in every so often worried me. So I had to wait for him to find wifi every once in awhile to FaceTime. We FaceTimed a couple times that night, and again, the emotions poured out. Danny made it halfway that night and stopped. He drove the rest of the way the next morning. 

Danny made it to Seattle and our phones were turned back on a couple days after. So that was nice. The rest of the week was just terrible. I was still so lonely, and I had absolutely no time for myself. I had no time to really do anything. Rylee requires so much attention, and it's almost impossible to get ready for the day, or even eat. 

I've just been trying to find things to do to keep myself busy. I'm not used to having Danny gone, and I'm definitely not used to taking care of Rylee by myself for such long periods of time. The first week was a drag, and it went by super slowly, but we got through it, of course.